tiger

hello my love
i am writing this letter for never send it to you. your last sms was beautifull. i don't know do you really know what i feel now and what do you feel!? first of all i want to thank the universe sent me this amazing meeting, cuz i asked to get such great expirience, to get a lot of different emotions and feelings -bad or good - never mind. i screamed for that!!! now i got it, i am in it...still in it and don't know how long does it take. i asked it for growing up myself, to be more self-sufficing and sensitive to the world, to me, to understand what i really want and i understood it... i want walking on the world with opened heart and mind, and develop myself all the time. now i see it's hard work, really hard. and first of all it's scaring thing when you got your feeling you don't know what is it and what to do, it's so hard, my love. especially when i understood clearly that we never meet up anymore... never, it killed me almost. now i am learning not become attached, accept situation, let you go and let you be happy with someone else...and i will, i get out!!! now i having very important process...i am not angry, i am quiet, i love people, world ....everything! and trying understand if it wasn't just my illusion...if it is, i will need more time to recover myself. the hardest thing is to accept that i never see you .... my tiger. i am smiling for us, love you..