hoping for a change in your life

hello. I am 19 years old and now there is exam time. first exam passes, little bit frustrating but I deserve that grade. I realized and always knew that I am too lazy to do things. procrastinating is my problem right now.
when was the last day in Almaty I met with my friend if I can say that Nurzhigit. we went to the cinema and ate some burgers. I felt very nervous. meeting came good but I was so nervous that I talked shit then. I am not sure that he would ever communicate with me.
also I started to work as a cashier at the computer club, nice place tho. I wonder would I work another half year there/
I want to find a job. a teacher. at least at online schools.
I feel like I've lost all of my feelings. cuz when my dad bought me a MacBook that I wanted for a long time I didn't feel anything. interesting

I hope that you will find someone who loves you and who do you love. `please bw happy in next year. find your fav hobby and activity that brings you joy. don't talk shit. save your energy/

being lazy is such a privilege. remember that.