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Dear Qi Ren,

I am writing this to you from the past. I wonder what will be the relationship of us during this time. We are very good and close on that time but for you we are best close friend. However for me, I wish that I'm the one that you don't wanna to lost. Anyway, for the time being I enjoy the days that you bring to me, the fun you have with me and the time we been together. I know this will end in one day but never know that I can keep this until when. All my friends also ask me to make this clear either I will get hurt. I knew it but every time when I would like make it clear, I can't do it when I think of what may happening if I do so. Therefore every time I fail. So this time I have really hurt so much.

The things that we done are not something that friend should done. If you are just for fun, then you should not try it on me. You know that, I can never reject your request. And when you repeat to do it on me could make me to misunderstand your meaning. I am afraid to ask for the answer since I afraid of the answer that I get will not be the answer that I want. But I know that his should be settle one day. Otherwise it will be a sympathize and mystery for the rest of my life.

Therefore for this time, I really make it, even it is not the face to face methods,because I can't face it but at least I had really make it. It has been for three years I keep this. This time I really want to ask you that, who am I for you? A friend, A baby sitter, A maid or someone that you would afraid to lost on one day. I wonder. Even if I am not any of the above, never mind, I will be alright. I will not be sad because you had bring me a lots of fun and joys. It will be a good memory for me that will never been told and repeat in the future.you will still the friend that in the depth of my heart.

At the last I still wanna to ask that can you be my love and am I qualified enough to be your love one. I love you. When you had read this letter I think you will not found me beside of you. Don't look for me and don't worry. I will be back when I'm alright.

Pei Wen