Hi my baby, hi my dear

Hello my dear, I am writing to you because I am having (again!) issues at workplace. I am writing here everything, right now, and from now on I will try to forget, just erase from my memory. Ok, first, I have always had problems here, either my schedule or my quitting/staying game. I promised I would leave before New Years, then when I was going to an interview, Lion had asked me to cover them, so I left everything and went there. Then they asked me to stay until that natasha would come from the vacation, and I ended up staying. Lion was promising to give me at least 3 days, then he forgot about his promise. He betrayed me. He was telling me over and over that he would not change other employees' hours and he would give them either morning or evening. He told me Mark told him he could not change the whole schedule because of one person, who is me. He was going to give me Saturday and Sunday nights only. But I said I was not going to work at all. He said, I can't just let you go like this. I understand you need money, I am not an asshole, bla bla bla. They all turned against me suddenly, they all betrayed me, maybe it was my fault. So, anyway, I am removing myself from this gas station. My studies will begin this Monday, and friday I might leave with deltasigs for a conference. I will come back and I will begin my job hunting process. I think I can live up to a month, and during this time I should look for jobs actively. Also, I need to study hard, I need to learn German. I should not procrastinate. My dear, how are you doing? Do you have a job? Do you have money? Are you happy my dear? I love you so much, don't cry my dear, please never cry. I don't want to see you crying again, the life is getting better and easier and you overcame the most difficult problems in the past, nothing should matter now, my dear. I would like to know where are you now, where you are reading this letter, if your new manager treats you well, if you are doing a great job in your studies and if you are selected to go to the states. My dear, never give up, never.